It's that time of year again folks. Companies all over Canada are making millions of dollars telling you that you need to be driven and focused this year! "You are going to lose that weight, and I am going to help you get there!" or the "I am going to finish that project, get that raise, get the award, run 10km, finally get rid of that baby weight, pay all the bills, get organized, ...I think I could actually go on forever. I'm sure you get my point.
First of all, there are far to many people in our life who already disapprove of our choices, do we really need to salt the wound? Second, does it matter? Will anything change if you lose the baby weight? Will anything truly change if you get an award? I'm not sure. I just know that how I feel every day is more important than any of that.
I am an overachiever. There, I said it. I try hard to be good at everything. It's a new year in six days and I have the year already planned. I am focused on the goals ahead and I know what to do to achieve them. I will bet you money that I do. I have passion and drive that is overwhelming and delicious all at the same time. Spending my time with amazing women who all come to me without egos or expectations, trusting me to bring their burlesque dreams to life. There is no better job. I have songs picked for the next four shows. I am six steps ahead of everyone else. I have my days and months planned and I don't ever stop planning the next show. I do however, wish I had a choice in the matter. My brain literally can't turn off. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my job and would never ever change it, but some days I wish I could just turn it off for more than a half day.
So since I can't turn it off, I realize that I need more. I wish I was one of those mothers who just spontaneously takes the kids away for a fun filled weekend. Or the mom who dances in the kitchen and laughs at all the jokes. I need more play in my life. I need to laugh more at the dinner table. I need to feel a deep breath. I need to dance even more and I'm not sure that's possible. I need to paint and connect with myself and ink my skin. I want to get outside and feel nature. I want to feel good and be good to my body.
I want to be clear, there is nothing wrong with overachieving, and there is nothing wrong with having goals. If you want to plan the year ahead, never judgement here. Go ahead and lose the weight, get organized or whatever it is. Just make sure they are going to change how you feel on your terms. What do you really want?! Ignite your fire, do what you want to do and be who YOU want to be!
Love and unicorn farts,