The Boudoir Rouge has always been an ever changing, ever shifting force. When I started back in 2013 it was to do two things, cross something off my bucket list and find a bigger and better way to empower the women in my life. When I told people that I wanted to do it, put on a burlesque show of my own, they laughed at me and told me that I would never find anyone to dance with me. There were only seven of us that first show but that was enough of a spark to ignite the fire that is still burning as we prepare to close out our sixth season.
Over the past six years the team has seen many changes. Shows have evolved to be bigger, better, sexier, crazier, and more people want to be a part of it. It seemed that each year we would have more and more women and men wanting to dance or support us in other ways. I am still blown away at the support and love I get from this amazing place I call home. People fall in love with the energy they get from a show. Walking into a Boudoir Rouge show is magical and you can feel it when you walk through the doors. Everyone is happy, everyone is ready, empowered, feeling their best and dressed the part. The exchange of energy from performer to audience member is real. The excitement and confidence that come from the performers is effortless. Its beautiful to watch.
While most of the changes have been good and exciting, there have been some significant changes in my personal life that have affected the course of Boudoir Rouge. In January of 2018 I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and nearly one year later I ended my eleven year marriage.
Now that I have left our home and the studio that nurtured six years of brilliant creativity, I am figuring out what it means and feels like to be independent. I am reevaluating everything in my life, including Boudoir Rouge. I think that somewhere along the way my motivation to continue burlesque shifted from soulful reasons to a need to feel validated and seen by my husband. Now that we are apart I had to dig deep and remind myself why I started this journey in the first place. Growing up I never had anyone to tell me I could do it, or that I was beautiful, or strong. I worked hard to find that in myself. I want women to see how beautiful they are and what they are capable of. I want to continue to see women evolve from housewife to showgirl superstar, I want to dance with amazing human every week, and I want to stand strong knowing that we are making a difference every time we get on that stage.
Now more than ever I am committed to keeping the magic alive. If I quit now I would be giving up on a huge part of myself and I just can't let that happen. As hard as it was to leave everything behind, I know that the future is bright. The Boudoir Rouge Burlesque team is an amazing collective of super human creatives and beautiful souls and they can move mountains. They are who I have to thank for the continued success of this unicorn tribe and together we are force to be reckoned with. I am so looking forward to our up coming shows, (Three shows coming your way!) and I can't wait to see where this takes us.
Love and showgirl kisses,